The problem I have with writing.

I don't have a problem with writing itself, I just have a personal problem writing.

I like to write and I want to write. If I could I'd probably write until my finger tips fell off. I think I express myself way better with words than I do speaking to someone. I have more time to think about what I want to say, to gather my thoughts and opinions. I have a lot of time to reflect on a subject that I want to write about and how I want to express that subject. I really want the reader to read what I write as something that only reflects my opinion and in no way suggesting that everyone else has to adhere to it. I don't want there to be any hidden doors or passages behind the words I write, I want my point visible and as clear as day.

You/I have to be emotionally invested in writing and what you're writing about. Which I think can be applied into other things like painting, or art in general. I think being invested into the subject, whether you express that view/feeling better by using a pen or by using a paint brush, is what helps bring that skill set to life. At least I would like to think that is what it does for me.  I don't think being emotionally invested is the only thing that is needed to write well, it's just one of the essential parts I tend to struggle with.

I feel strongly about a lot of things, but there are times where I want to write but I can't muster up that feeling that helps drive my words. I never want to force anything because with writing you can tell when someone is forcing words from in between their fingertips, rather then letting the thoughts flow from them. Also if I do that, what I am trying to express just gets lost in a jungle of words, I wouldn't really be doing anything but filling that need to write and I would end up sending a search party for the readers who tried to find the point of it all.

I don't think I have any problems expressing myself when I can write. I think when I am 'there', I can write my feelings, thoughts, opinions almost effortlessly. Not to say I am an expert writer or anything, I just think that I can express self pretty well. When people enjoy my writing or understand my point of view, it makes me feel good about myself and my writing, because even though my vocabulary isn't the strongest at least a person knows where I stand.

At the moment I am constantly looking to write about something, I know I am probably being a bit impatient. I'm sure the more I write the more this wall will be broken down. It's just a matter of time.